In the post years of 1980, China consisted of atheists, people without any religious faith and people who did not believe in the teachings of Mao Ze Dong.  They believed only in results achieved through self effort, be it success or failure.  Coincidentally, I was one of them.  I was born in the 1980s, in a poor peasant family.  My parents were extremely conservative and traditional.  Beside the nine years of mandatory education that I received, the only other teaching that I could accept was Marxism and Maoism.

As I grew up, I felt that Maoism and Marxism were like things I had learnt in a past life.  I had completely forgotten them.  The influence of Marxism and Maoism ended with my parents’ generation.  China’s mythology whose history spans 5,000 years, however, was rekindled in the hearts of her people.  This spurred those who had a religious faith to begin building temples.  It was also at this time that Jesus and His disciples appeared.  I only recalled that they will gather to worship on a specific day.  It was also such a discipline in gathering together that caused people to think that this was a form of control, to the extent that it was viewed as a cult.  As a result, even before they received God’s blessings, they had closed their hearts.  Consequently, the number of Christians slowly dwindled.  For that reason, I failed to have a good understanding of Jesus, so much so that I had a bad impression of Christianity.  I did not expect that this misunderstanding kept me away from the kind Heavenly Father for over ten years.

In the year 2000, I got married to a Christian.  I had no idea what this meant but I felt that there was no difference between a Christian and me.  My husband also told me about God the Father.  But I did not take what I heard to heart.  I did not have the heart to understand.  This was perhaps due to my upbringing.  But I was not aware that the kind Heavenly Father was calling out to me and wanted to save me.

In the year 2010, I came to Singapore with my husband.  In the first month, Cun Liang eagerly brought me to Tree of Life Christian Church.  It was here that I met Pastor Tan, Xiao Fang, Bao Li and other sisters and brothers in the Lord.  They are kind and gentle.  They obey God’s will by fighting with Satan to take hold of people who are vacillating between good and evil.

In the year 2011, on the National Day of Singapore, I made the most critical resolution of my life towards Yahweh.   Under the leading and company of Xiao Fang, Bao Li and Elder Ke Li, I made a promise to God and believed in the Lord.  As I confessed that I am a sinner, tears welled up in my eyes.  My heart felt immeasurably relaxed, comforted and peaceful.  This was the first time that I felt that there was no one around me except God and I.  It was only then that I realised that I have finally landed on shore after my journey in the vast ocean.  The kind Heavenly Father had been waiting for me on the shore.  That person who had been lost at sea for a very long time, that child’s boat has finally landed on shore.

I look forward to 22^nd of July 2012: I am going to get baptized.  I shall draw near to God with honest hands and a sincere heart.  I shall throw away all the doubts and misunderstandings I harboured towards God.  I hope that, under that guidance of God, I can quickly grow up, and obey God by saving those who are beside me.