When I was about 10 years old in primary school, my classmate, who was from a Christian family, invited me to attend school at his house. My sister was also invited by her friends to visit another Presbyterian church. Thus, I followed her. After attending a few times, however, I stopped. I thank God that I was introduced to Jesus then, but I did not have a deep understanding of this Saviour.
This continued until I was 15 years old. I contacted members of the Presbyterian church and started attending the youth fellowship and the Sunday worship. I felt, however, that during this period I still did not understand the Lord Jesus. I just knew that as long as you believed in the Lord Jesus, you can be saved and go to heaven after death.
After completing secondary school, I came to Singapore to work. As time passed, I started not going to church and gradually, I began abandoning God. In the time without God I became my own king, arrogant with no humility in my heart.
After marriage, my mother-in-law once again encouraged me to attend Sunday worship. I accepted and attended Sunday worship. I was also baptised in 2014. In this period, I felt that my journey in believing God was careless and not with a serious attitude. I felt that my faith was too weak. Only when there were big issues did I turn to God in prayer. If not, I would not pray.
In the year 2018 my life after believing in Christ met with a change. I had an unprepared pregnancy. This would be my fourth child. This child was unexpected, and my entire family was delighted. However, the child left us only after a weeks. I could not understand nor comprehend why God gave me this child only to take the child away.
At that time, I was very discouraged. With Pastor Andrew, pastor’s wife Koon Yoke, Chen Ming, Bao Li, Rev Wong’s family, and brothers and sisters’ comfort, I was given a Bible verse: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Rom 8:28).
I have been meditating on the meaning of this Scripture and took away a question: where would my unborn child go after death?
This point awakened me to the fact that my living children and husband have yet to believe in God. If I do not maintain an enthusiastic attitude, how could I lead them to Christ? How could I help my family received the eternal hope?
I thank God that since young Jesus Christ has never left me when faced with any kind of problems. Ever since I entered Tree of Life Christian Church, I became like a seed and the church members tried their best to add fertiliser and help me gradually grow into a small tree. I feel it deeply in my heart that God arranged everything for me to gain a richer understanding of His love and salvation. I thank and praise the Lord.
translated by Davina Seet